Thoughts from the Chair

Well, today marks 4 weeks since the big accident and surgery. I have to say, the last 2 weeks have been harder in many ways than the first two. The first two I was happy to sit in the chair because I really didn't feel like doing much else. But then I found myself mentally and emotionally ready to get back into life but my body wasn't quite ready. Being the social person I am, coming back to the recliner to look at the fireplace became more and more difficult knowing most people were out enjoying the last days of summer or at least buying their kids school supplies. Tired of asking others to do what I could not do for myself was getting very old. I've learned a lot about myself in this and am trying to see what God would have me learn in all of this.

What I've learned about myself: I really am a people person, more than I thought. I'm not a good passenger in the car, I'd much rather be driving and in control - just ask my mother-in-law. I don't like being weak - physically or emotionally. I like being self-sufficient - I hate asking others for help. It's easier to give than to receive. I have a great family and friends - I knew that but appreciate it in a new way.

I think one of the things I'm supposed to be learning in all of this is humility. I'm hoping it will stop soon but it may not. I was humbled to have 2 friends come and clean my house and see that I'm not the best housekeeper. I am humbled by what I can't do or what takes me a really long time to do. I was elated today when I was told I could start bearing weight and walking on my metal plated ankle. I was humbled when I left the PT appointment with a cane and even more humbled when I walked into Target and ran into some people I knew with my cane. Next I headed over to the motorized carts. I quickly realized how low you sit and how inferior you feel among your fellow shoppers. If that wasn't enough, the carts beep when you back up adding insult to injury. And then, my cart ran out of juice right next to the "intimate apparel" section. Nice! Thankfully, my husband came around the corner and to my rescue a few minutes later. Humility of a different sort. I will look at many people with new eyes now and that's a good thing.

So today was a big step as I gained a little more independence with my new walking orders. Yet, I hope I don't forget what I am learning with each new step in this process. Oh, and the fireplace, there is no question in my mind that it WILL get painted a nice cream color in the near future!